August 28, 2006

Self-Portrait in an Enclosed Space- (The Reality of a Monday Night)

I realized this week, that since I started the Self-portrait challenge, I have presented myself in a very mysterious light. Most of my portraits have been dark, sullen, overly thought out pieces. So this week, although I am still not smiling, and still somehow shrouded in shadows, I wanted my portrait to look calm, peaceful, content. Because that is how I feel most of the time these days.

It is Monday night; I had a stressful, yet fulfilling day at work. I came home bathed and put the baby to sleep, after we took a tour of the back and front yard to smell the jasmine blossoms that are coming in. I barbequed some veggies for fajitas, and spent some time chatting with my wife about our plans to someday soon move to Argentina.

I often use my writing/art/this blog to express the side of myself that is suffering or confused or frustrated that people, who don’t know me, may get the impression that I am a jaded, cynical, depressed political zealot. Where in reality, I am the exact opposite. I guess I believe in the school of thought that says, "people don’t express themselves artistically well when things are going well."

Here is my attempt to change that. I tried to capture a typical, Monday night in the life of a new dad, teacher, husband, son, getting ready for bed after a day well lived. Not on some adventure or living his fantasy bohemian dreams, but simply living each moment with the people he loves, loving his work, and being happy.

I also realized that most of my images have been obscured shots. So here is one head on. Sorry I am not smiling or looking better, but I tried really hard to articulate everything I said in this post through my expression. I guess looking morose is in my nature. Did I mention that I was quite tired as well?

11 comments:

  1. I like this image of you (your eyes are fabulous). One does not have to smile to convey contentment. Your words alone have smiled for you.

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  2. your picture looks alive, like you're a still shot from a movie, ready to come to life and start talking at any minute. I love that.

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  3. This picture is very honest and definately different from your others. You always have such a powerful gaze or expression in all of your photos, i always enjoy seeing what you post each week. Thank you so much for your comments you are too kind :) I'm going to attempt next months challenge but with no promises....regardless i will continue to post up pictures on my blog as photography is my most recent artistic passion. I greatly appreciate your encouragement and compliments. Should you and your family ever move to Argentina be sure to have some Yerba Mate :) Cheers!

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  4. OK, you definitely achieve your goal here.

    But on a funny note (that maybe only you will appreciate) you definitely look like a teacher who has just been asked by his principal to move into an airless room with no carpet and barely-working electricity. Let's not forget the sound of thumping overhead when there is a PE lesson.

    Just kidding. Cool post :-)

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  5. I just think you look very thoughtful in this photo. I suspect you probably look pretty intense even in photos where you smile because of having such expressive eyes.

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  6. It is a wonderful image of a day well-lived. That is a wonderful phrase, to go with your SPC. Thank you!

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  7. i really really really liked your post on living a simple good day. and i was excited to see how your picture fit in with that. well done.

    kj

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  8. I loved this post and the realness of it :)

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  9. You do look a little like my son - that's scary. Also, you look like you're holding back a laugh - like, you know something is really funny, but you're in a serious place, and in the background, Kaia is probably making some kind of noise that you find wonderful, and oh, wait, the photo...

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  10. no- you definitely got the new dad, frazzled teacher look down. :)

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