It’s been a while; I know. Funny how easy it is to rant and rave and complain and vent and gripe and share your woes, but when asked to jot down a few positive thoughts I can’t seem to make the time. I am more than happy to stay up untill midnight scribing a venomous rant about the Tea Party, but can’t seem to carve out five minutes to say life is good. Life is more than good; life is great. All systems go. Living as I should be.
I was gently reminded that however small, I have finally after three years created a small loyal audience here at my blog. Comments like the one below do wonders for ones self-esteemed, especially when said self-esteem is unhealthy wrapped up in need for attention and validation, but I digress.
This post was meant to be a quick pop in to say:
I am happy. I feel physically good and comfortable in my skin. Work is going well, and I finally feel like I am on the right track now that I am back in the classroom. (Spent the first few weeks setting up the program) I am doing cool things with technology and my students are responding and performing well.
My own kids are amazing. Skyelar is almost one and really becoming her own person. She growls when annoyed, but otherwise she is usually all smiles. She is a few weeks, maybe days away from walking and babbles non-stop. She is an eating machine who devours blue berries by the bushel. Kaia, well she is Kaia. Her tantrums and irritability have died down a bit and she is usually quite pleasant. She counts and sings in Bahasa and Chinese. It amazes me how big she is getting. Sometimes I can’t believe how much of a little girl she has become. She is no longer a baby or a toddler. She has entered girlhood for sure and this excites me to no end.
See this post doesn’t feel right! Who cares about these things? Why would anyone read about this mundane contentment? But I guess it does a body good to sometimes just step back and say, “My life is running pretty smoothly at the moment." Maybe when it derails and I fall back off, I could look to these times, to these posts and see what was going right. After all aren't these fleeting moments of joy the very thing we search for our entire lives?
So what is going right? I am simply living day-to-day and trying to do the best I can and enjoying the little things. I am working hard on a variety of projects: book, blogging, mentoring, etc…and I am trying to be as involved as I can with my family even though I am often exhausted. There is a trip to Singapore in my future and time is moving at a comfortable pace. Not to slow and not too fast.
I was going to delete this post, but thought what the hell…the positive vibe might help some one out there. Hope it holds you over until I can piece together something a bit more substantial.
On second thought, let's not discount this post altogether, maybe we can turn this into a conversation. What are the little things that keep you happy? The things that help you feel like things are alright? What are the little things that you cherish? And why do you forget them when life gets tricky?