Sunday, August 21, 2011

Other Days

This is my favorite part of the week: the kids have stopped screaming and fighting the inevitable- sleep. They are curled-up lost in a tapestry of slumber and books. Both of them are literally asleep on a bed of books--bound by paper and images, imaginations, stories and wonder. Silent. The house is perfect.

Earlier we went for a bike ride, a swim, had dinner, baths, teeth brushed, a little TV. There is little poetry in these activities except for when you look and realize the whole thing is the most amazing poem there can ever be-- passing childhood. A bundle of lives interwoven: a family rolling through the tunnel of time.

The music is soft and caressing the places which need a soothing touch. Tonight it is Gillian Welch. The trembling of her guitar strings and vocal chords the perfect universal vibration. After everything has been done, checked off lists, read, consumed, understood, reflected on, pondered and argued. After the information has been swallowed, regurgitated, tweeted and subdued, there is little else left but this...

This moment of time. Floating on each breath. Full-in. Full-out. The words drip like stimulated sap on the run. Sticky. Aromatic. Alive but operating on a different plane of time. Amber colored solitude draped in the need for the never-ending night. Memories of merlot and spilling ashtrays supplanted by the reality of fatherhood and Sunday nights that will never be long enough. That will not, cannot, take you where you need to go.

It is good. Of this you are certain, but beyond that it gets murky. These words have been a trusty wave. A good ride. No need to paddle out again. There will be other sets. Other days.

image by swede1971

Sunday, August 07, 2011

unnameable

on nights like this:
when the body is weak
and the mind soft and malleable
there stirs a kernel of something
-unnameable-
from down deep,
quivering just below the surface,
prodded by song
or romantic notions of
faint youth.

it swims in the gut
punching its way out
shifting mercury,
evaporating gasses
thunderstorms
walls of sound.

you reach to grab it
wrestle it
pin it down.

scrape words from it
carve it up or paint it
strum it

haven’t you learned yet?
close your eyes,
dance with it
bask in it
and let it go.

the fact that it was here
at all
is enough.

Thursday, August 04, 2011

Beautiful and Finite

Below you will find a video. It is powerful. It is beautiful. It is vital. I have a cumbersome batch of thoughts on it that I cannot seem to capture. They are deceivingly light and agile. They are connected to my recent spate of technology related anxiety. I started a post with rooted in that agitation, but my train of thought went to a different station. You can follow those tracks by reading this.  

I thought I would watch the video again and see if we can’t arrive at the right spot.

I miss the earth. I am here, but feel so distant. I have escaped into screens and am making connections with texture I cannot feel. Shallow surfaces that leave no residue, but guilt and emptiness. I have forgotten the feeling of soil beneath my feet--tile to car to tile to cement to car to tile to bed. I have forgotten the gentle song of the moon. The stars blanked out by the buzz of machines. I have taken for granted the soul-shaking wonder of a living planet.

I want a change. I want a break. I want to unplug.

                 want change.       want break.       want unplug.

                                change.             break.              unplug?

Aw.. screw it. I don’t know how to steer this train. Watch for yourself. What do you think? What do you feel? Have we gone too far forward? Progressed too much? Can we get our planet back?

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